Wednesday, 7 March 2007

Nothing

Do you know the feeling of no feeling? Fucking hell it rocks. I don't feel much anything. It's like... well... I'm not happy, I'm not sad, I'm not concerned or feeling repulsion in any way. I dragged myself to this word document, don't know why. Maybe is the reminiscent of a long time dead joy of expression, who knows. But yes, I walk around in a newly acquired state of mind, facing the once full of promises with a blank face, stumbling into chameleon thoughts changing from red to blue, whispering potential happiness with an accent of sorrow. I ignore them, and they go away. I know you bastards well and your hands are made of jelly, schizoid hands, take you to paradise and hell in no time. I chose neither. I don't choose neither.

I did not force myself into all this, dear reader. It happened to me after a wave of desire and I decided to keep it. Once you spend long enough into it, it keeps itself. I laugh at it and everything else, and I laugh a lot. Now THAT I had to force myself into at first. Not that I don't laugh, I do, but this is a different kind of laugh. It's much funnier than before and yet doesn't make my face go red. It is hilarious. It has no opposite. Just like Love.

4 comments:

Indigobusiness said...

What's not to like?

twit said...

I know exactly what you mean.

But accusing me of being a pathological liar is a bit heavy, Paula.

La Sirena said...

Yes, me too.
blasé, blasé, blah...

Anonymous said...

la sirena, will you shut it for a while, i mean, whats your purpose, lolling around in fucking bubble wrap sipping wine naked scaring the neighbours?

jesus fucking christ. i hope mosquitos will banquet you this summer.